sad. ---- i picture Jimi Hendrix, as he lit his guitar on fire and smashed it on stage because the people didnt understand it anymore. ... Bobby Fischer refusing to play chess anymore. ... Nicholas Wilde soaking his modems in water and throwing them in the trash that day he decided to stop hacking.

i'm stoned on cold meds in all the right ways. the dood across the street is on to me. we're not here to win. we're just tourist watching the world spin, we already are winning because of that. i hadnt planned on doing quite so many pills today, but i lost my fucking debit card at exactly the wrong time. i was in walgreens, buying a pocket radio for like 11 dollars so i could be social and go out into the world with a little radio to keep me safe from the fucking voices and the GOD DAMNED debit card was missing in my wallet at the checkout. so fuck it all my friends... i'm as trashed as i am sad, and i'm ENJOYING my DEFEAT.