things can morph

(through out this article and in life in general, i mean no, NONE, NO disrespect to *Any* religion)
i play world of warcraft often, like everyday, and i've been playing an undead priest named "oziriz" for very long time.

oziriz meaning Osiris, the Ancient Egyptian God born of Isis....

see, i've been focusing on my wow caracter and "osiris" for so darned long, in my dreams, when i'm not at my computer at any given time.... hehe, i mean it's like i've not only taken on the characteristics in thought of osiris and isis, but that they've maybe blessed my life in some ways :)

... just because people tell you "This is the way the world works" does NOT mean it works that way :)

more me. trying to find MY STYLE in this one.

the flowers plead to cry while upside down

the dead are my favorite, they control merry, go-round.

little do i know i'm part one of a million

little do i know that i'm a big fish looking out of a coffin

thy fate is not sealed, i do still seak

my maiden is NEVER revealed, though she is my pistol i carry concealed

some are so fucking stupid that they fly without manuals

i'm trying to prevent them from dancing on high-heels.

freaking tough to write freely. too many people read what i write... not that i don't like it that people like reading my writings, of course i like people reading my writings, but when i was the only one reading what i wrote it was a million times easier to type "free"

"note to self" - this is an ATTEMPT, i'm not happy with it, going to try again.

[edit: i do actually like this one, it was a lot worse when i first finished. but after reading a few times, it kind of good :) :edit]

“note to self”
Dance with the dead when you can, their beauty is priceless
Don’t feed the blind the path, unless they’re aware they’re sightless

It’s ok to feel pain, it’s ok to feel like shit
It’s not ok to accept and do nothing about it

Words might dig you a deeper hole, but you know you can crawl out
And those same words can give wings to the grounded making the shut up to the shout

Time is a rare commodity, and often people take it for granted
Don’t be the same, have the courage to BE action

Everyday you’re winning tiny victories
Tiny victories lead to the war winning memory

Remember you’re not the only one here, applaud others who try
Forget the ones who’ve truly given up and live like they’ve already died

Jfkasdljkfajskldfjklsdaa this is “ok” but I need to start over. I’m posting this, but I’m going to try to write something better, this isn’t turning out the way I want it to.

needing to give myself some space

i had told some people i'm going to type a poem soon, like tonight. i need to give myself some space as i'm currently too nervous to write up a poem. i still plan to write one, but it might not come up tonight, well i mean this morning....

still, when i'm capable, i PLAN to write a poem.

happy :)

i didn't have coffee for a few days, and most days i drink so much coffee, well without it, i'm super drowsy.
today i got coffee!

i didnt have cigarettes for quite a few days, most days i smoke a pack!
today i got cigarettes!

i didn't have headphones for my computer for like a month or longer, headphones are important for me
because they help me not pay attention to the auditory hallucinations.
today i got really nice headphones!

i AM happy :)

a note to myself

as i previously stated on my livejournal blog/journal, is that i HAVE to STOP paying attention to "signs". i really need to work on this one. thinking certain ways has taken control of my mind, and it's difficult to be free in action.

life (This is where i go "yay" with sarcasm)

my life has been hell for days now. things are starting to clear up though. in short, for days i was out of my mind, hallucinating a lot, depressed, etc.

i'll be around though when i recover.

this song ownz!

support the artist, i think this song is so new that you can't buy it YET, but when you can, if you like it, buy it :) [edit: btw, yes, with my next SSI/disability check, i'm planning on budgeting some for music. :edit]

quick note, something for people to do while bored, especially internet people.

i read something a few weeks ago about "Goals" for life.. um kind like "what youre supposed to do with life"
and it was meant to be inspiring. it was.

if i can find out who the author is, i really WILL give credit to them(i probably will in time!)
but they said something like


"experience life,
then talk about it"

thats it.

but that little statement was SO grand.

it's like, you can do anything you want in life, and then just tell everyone what you did!

it's a win win situation. you're no longer bored because you're doing something you like, and you can tell
everyone about it, like make blog post, make a youtube video, whatever, and others will win because they'll
get emotions from the interactions with your video or reading your post whatever... :)

um, i'm kind of 'drunk' right now, so maybe i'm all goofy and stuff, but this just seems like a killer fallback plan
for when sadness/depression hits. like "experience life, then talk about it"... it's just so stellar to me :)

... i'll spend some time today trying to find the author.

goals for the future

.... try to star living like a "normal" person... umm, i mean, like, take a look around my apartment, look outside... try too look at it from someone elses eye's someone who doesn't know me. not that i care, but WHAT would they think?

.. try to understand that i have a pretty darned good life going for myself.. i complain a lot, but when i really look at things, my life is quite good! it's different than most peoples lives. VERY different. but thats fine. :)

goals, world of warcraft, moving from livejournal

i think i'm finally moving here from livejournal.com. i will try to move all of those entries over here one by one but it will take a LONG time as i have like 1,236 entries going back to 2008.

anyways, over a year ago in world of warcraft, i made a goal to max out my fishing skill on my main character. well about 2 months ago, i finally did that.

now i am looking for a new goal to achieve in world of warcraft.

i am thinking i will max out cooking on my main character. but i dont know. i have a level 81 druid (my main is only level 67) and i think i might max my druid out and then instead of working on my priests professions, work on my maxed level druid's professions, because that way i will make a lot more gold in the auction houses.

i dont know though.